Sandi's Vlog

Had to Do …

 
This morning, I am thankful for all the things I have “had to do” …

I had to lie, to learn just how bitter it tastes.

I had to lose love, so I could realize just how precious it is, no matter how long it lasts.

I had to meet an abuser, to realize that I alone control who is in my life.

I had to win, so I knew it didn’t make me more valuable than another.

I had to be alone, to learn that I enjoy my own company.

I had to try and fail and try and fail again, to finally lose the fear of failure.

I had to realize I am enough, to finally be seen that way.

I had to speak, to be heard.

I had to learn to compliment myself, so that I didn’t depend on others to do same (and so I could believe them when they did!).

I had to realize his/her leaving didn’t diminish my worth, any more than his/her arrival increased it.

I had to be wounded, again and again, to realize how efficiently I heal.

I had to fly, to realize another’s arrows do not diminish the value of the wind.

I had to laugh at myself, to realize my giggles sound amazing, solo or as part of a choir.

I had to learn to rest, so that I could finally live at full throttle rather than half-ass.

I had to be controlled, to realize freedom is my air.

I had to be defined, to realize I am the only one who will ever do that again.

I had to forgive and start with me.

 
I love you!
HUGSSSSSSSS
Sandi