But Tonight …

It seems like only yesterday that I heard you laugh, only yesterday that I saw your smile. But then sometimes it seems like it’s been forever and the only constant … is how much I miss you.

No, Mom, I promise. I don’t cry all the time anymore. I am passed that. More often than not, I can now tell one of your stories or make ‘your face’ and just smile, happy in having known and loved you.

But tonight … I miss you. You tried so hard to stay but it just wasn’t meant to be. I am so glad I was there with you. So glad I got to kiss you good-bye and hold your hand as they shut off those gawd awful machines. I know you are happy now. I know you waited so long to be with Dad again … but tonight I’m going to be selfish and wish you were still here with me. Forgive me that. Considering the woman you were, can you really blame me?

Don’t worry. I won’t stay here too long. I know I have things to do and that dwelling in the past is everything you wouldn’t want me to do. I know I will be okay, and I will go on. I will accomplish all the things that you knew I was capable of. But tonight, if it’s ok, I think I’m just going to miss you.

I love you!